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Title
A lot has been written
Author
Dorotik, Jane
Pages
5 pages
State
California
Text (O)
A lot has been written Original Dorotik CA A lot has been written about the prison system lately -- why we as a nation incarcerate so many, why the bureauocratic and unweildy system is only expected to make minimal cuts to its 11 billion dollar budget while education and social supports are slashed to the very core, why California's prison system has the highest recidivism rate of any state in the nation? But little is written of the individual suffering that occurs in devastating ways o...
PID
apw:12344502
Date Uploaded
2016-10-21T15:41:58.187Z
Title
A word to the fish
Author
Vanderford, Anna
Pages
1 page
Topics
Prisoners' writings, American -- Unknown, Unknown. Department of Correction
Text (O)
Anna MI Vanderford OK A Word to the Fish I don't know why they call new arrivals "fish", perhaps because you feel like a fish out of water, when you arrive in prison. My mom was an old Jewish lady, old by even the standard of other parents. She was really old enough to be my grandmother when she and her retired husband adopted me. She used to say ,"You can't put an old head on: young shoulders." I'm not sure that I ever knew what that meant nor cared. Howeve...
PID
apw:12352970
Date Uploaded
2018-09-25T19:49:28.89Z
Title
An American epidemic
Author
Adams, Meagan
Pages
3 pages
Text (TR_WF)
An American Epidemic Do you remember when you were naive enough to believe you were invincible? Now, imagine yourself as that kid and being told your whole life is being stripped from you before you've even had the opportunity to know what it feels like to live by your own rules. Are you there? Can you see it? Can you feel it? Good! Sadly and tragically this scenario is much more than an image cooked up by one's imagination. American is facing a tragedy of epic proportions; an epide...
PID
apw:12356338
Date Uploaded
2019-05-28T17:21:57.853Z
Title
As of today July 31st 2017
Author
Pineda, April Dawn
Date
2017-07-31
Pages
11 pages
Text (TR_WF)
NO TITLE By: April Dawn Pineda As of today July 31st 2017, I sit in my 10 by 4 concrete cell with a blue steel door, with no visability out a purposely fogged out window, (so we can't see the sky, for what reason I do not know) with a hatch for our meals in a maximum level 4 unit locked down for 23 hours a day to the beat of commercials, banging, clanging and screaming at all hours of the day. I'm at Elmwood Correctional facility in Milpitas California and have been in maximum level...
PID
apw:12350750
Date Uploaded
2018-03-16T15:41:34.754Z
Title
Chances and choices
Author
Maynard, T. L.
Pages
2 pages
Text (TR_WF)
Chances and Choices A memoir By Tabitha Lee Maynard The cinderblocks breathe and sweat, spin and jump, like they have a life of their own. The weight piles on as the volume raises. The screams of ignorance and suffering cannot drown out the noise in my head. The burns, bruises, and cuts do not cover the pain. The ringing of keys, a clink and bang; new sounds in the ocean of noise. Chow’s here, preceded by the nauseating smell of rotten food adding to the constant wet smell of mildew. On the e...
PID
apw:12359723
Date Uploaded
2020-06-18T19:31:43.272Z
Title
Choices
Author
Gatlin, Amanda Collette
Pages
2 pages
Text (TR_WF)
10-17-16 Cell-138/IPOD BCJC Choices I became like an animal being fed through a fence when I made that choice. Having to fight for my right to exist and never completely succeeding. I'm only a number in this maximum security hell. I wish this would end, but they wouldn't get their payday, would they? You see, that's the reason for this hopelessness, sadly, for all this madness, are we meat for the beast? If so, which one? This can't fix my problem. Or the problem for most ...
PID
apw:12349646
Date Uploaded
2018-03-15T19:51:40.685Z
Title
Civil war
Author
Vanderford, Anna
Pages
1 page
Topics
Prisoners' writings, American -- Unknown, Unknown. Department of Correction
Text (O)
Anna M. Vanderford OK Civil War Did you know that we have been having a civil war for many years now, what was deemed as The War on Drugs. Not only was I on the wrong side of the war but I am a casualty of the war. I grew up with an alcoholic, pedophile for a father and a cult-blinded, religious mother. I was scared of everything, but if I was going to live in sin, I had narrowed it down to my childhood sin of sex. My boyfriend on the other hand, was into drugs. All those sayings about "...
PID
apw:12352964
Date Uploaded
2018-09-25T19:49:24.464Z
Title
Confussed
Author
James, Brittany
Date
2016
Pages
1 page
Text (TR_WF)
Confussed Brittany James Boggle only there is no words, blank spaces unable to fill, empty an inside out, rung out and hung to dry, here but never fully aware, be in every moment, even if its only fractions, any part is worth hanging onto, my life in a closet, the door opens and you never come out, bleed out to know that your alive, without breath, thickness, you're un-able to catch-22. You never win, Russian roulette, how do you hit and miss, kiss of death, rise above this life, resurre...
PID
apw:12346674
Date Uploaded
2017-08-16T00:44:42.835Z
Title
Cooked frogs
Author
Vanderford, Anna
Pages
3 pages
Topics
Prisoners' writings, American -- Unknown, Unknown. Department of Correction
Text (O)
‘ @ Anna M. Vanderford Old address New Address 537261 MBCC C1-A-215 145673 1010 W 5”‘ Ave. 29501 Kickapoo Rd. Shakopee, MN 55379 Mc Loud, OK 74851 Cooked Frogs I came from a very abusive single parent home. I’d been beat with hair brushes, appliance cords and slapped. I only stayed as long as I did because I didn’t know what else to do. It wasn’t long before I was in the company of teens that could and would dare me to do things that would endanger their future. I was their shoplifter, I proc...
PID
apw:12356330
Date Uploaded
2019-05-28T17:21:44.618Z
Title
Cornering of the market by TDCJ
Author
Jalomos, Mary Ann
Pages
3 pages
Text (TR_WF)
For many years our friends, family, and loved ones could purchase items from credited vendors and have them sent to us. Items such as writing paper, note books, journals, stationery, box cards, envelopes, etc. We could even purchase them by direct order with a payment from our Trust Fund Account. 7.1 TDCJ decided it wanted to curb what inmates could get and from whom. Now, we must buy paper, cards, envelopes etc, from the unit commissary. TDCJ made product from TDCJ ran print shops. Our famil...
PID
apw:12353098
Date Uploaded
2018-09-26T10:56:49.827Z
Title
Dear Readers, Many of you guys wonder
Author
Magana, Maria Elena
Date
2019-04-28
Pages
2 pages
Text (TR_WF)
Dear Readers, Many of you wonder how the inside of a prison facility is. Maybe many of you guys have an idea. Which is made up of experiences from a male that was incarcerated. Only if you guys knew that our image of being able to smoke, inmates sticking together, food being good, and one thing above all of that is once you get out your time time given to you: you do it and get out. How wrong we were! Not only that it gets so much worse for a female inmate. My name is Maria Elena Magana and I...
PID
apw:12357958
Date Uploaded
2019-10-28T20:38:40.408Z
Title
Descriptions of sources of stress, and ways of copin
Author
Lawless, Arline
Pages
2 pages
Text (O)
Descriptions of sources of stress, and ways of coping. Where can I start about the sources of stress in here? There are so many forms of stress from the guards screaming at the top of their lungs to your family not being able to come to see you because they were 2 minutes late for the check in. That is complete bullshit if you ask me especially when your family drives 2 % hours to see you. In fact, there are a few women in here where their family members drive over 7 hours to come and see the...
PID
apw:12351574
Date Uploaded
2018-03-16T23:56:41.124Z
Title
Different
Author
James, Brittany
Date
2016
Pages
1 page
Text (TR_WF)
Different view, different you, different sight, touch, and feel, wheel me in center stage and have a quick glance, lance open your perception and see what keeps the thought whole; always falling apart, domino effect, we all fall down - a well and never come out, drowned by your own selfish ways, spoon yourself to death because there is no sharps, safety proof, always guarded, no concern for any rule, regulation, or even request, a test of my attitude and unstable thoughts, a constant accelera...
PID
apw:12346670
Date Uploaded
2017-08-16T00:44:42.106Z
Title
Employment
Author
Lawless, Arline
Pages
2 pages
Text (O)
EMPLOYMENT There are a few jobs that are available to the women here. The paying jobs are two librarians, two computer lab workers, 7 industry workers, then the cook, the baker is paid from each shift, and there are two shifts. Then there are nonpaid jobs which these people receive goodies like drink mix and what not. There are the rest of the kitchen workers that are not paid. I believe that there are 3 to 4 people in the kitchen who isn't paid. In addition, a floor crew does the floors...
PID
apw:12351700
Date Uploaded
2018-03-17T01:19:42.759Z
Title
Focus on your life
Author
Anderson, Jennifer
Pages
4 pages
Text (O)
Focus on Your Life By jennifer Anderson sunset is such a beautiful and amazing thing to watch. I get lost in the magic of the stunning colors streaking across the sky. As it sets down past the razor-wire and I hear the guards shout to corral us all back inside for the night, I snap back to reality. The smile melts from my face as I remember where I am. I am in a Federal Prison Camp in Bryan, Texas. Entering the tremendously loud unit, which houses two hundred twenty—five girls/women, a diverse...
PID
apw:12351618
Date Uploaded
2018-03-17T00:31:44.296Z
Title
Gargle, rinse, repeat
Author
Vanderford, Anna
Pages
2 pages
Topics
Prisoners' writings, American -- Unknown, Unknown. Department of Correction
Text (O)
Anna Vanderford Old address New Address 537261 MBCC C1-A-215 145673 1010 W. 6th Ave. 29501 Kickapoo Rd. Shakopee, MN 55379 Mc Loud , OK 74851 Gargle . Rinse, Repeat You are an adult, you've broken the law, you are in prison, but there's nothing else short of killing you that anyone can do to you, now add, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO! Certainly, not some ignorant inmate that you didn't ask for an opinion from. You get into a scuffle with another inmate. Off to the ja...
PID
apw:12353071
Date Uploaded
2018-09-25T21:48:17.647Z
Title
Hate
Author
James, Brittany
Date
2016
Pages
1 page
Text (TR_WF)
Hate Sedate me till its over, nail me to a chair and strip me of my thoughts, the feelings never die, I found the missing link in the chain, peddle my way strait to hell, fall down and never get up, a coffin with no escape route, who knows how to use a first aids kit? Resuscitate me, one, two, three, breathe...operation there is no pulse, a zombie from the walking dead, even they feel hunger, feed my uncensored need, for thought, my thoughts are never enough food, scale your way up the side o...
PID
apw:12346672
Date Uploaded
2017-08-16T00:44:42.566Z
Title
If the walls could talk
Author
Brethorst, Denisha
Date
2013
Date
2013, 2013
Pages
10 pages
State
Illinois
Text (FT)
IF THE WALLS COULD TALK Words impact our lives. Some words impacting my life are change, strength, perception, fear, anger, and love. Because of these words I am surviving. It is very difficult and lonely at times. I find positive in all of my challenges and try to overcome them. Don't get me wrong, it is hard to find the positive in a lot of situations. My friends always comment on how strong I am, and how God gives you what you can handle. I should be Hercules, however I am not. I just...
PID
apw:290
Date Uploaded
2015-09-16T18:25:51.995Z
Title
Insane
Author
James, Brittany
Date
2016
Pages
1 page
Text (TR_WF)
Insane Take me where the walls talk, scream, and stalk my mind, Rogger Rabbit with a pistol, deranged but can't help but see, binoculars for an unexpected scene, take one, two, let the show begin, a one tack mind and a killer voice, padded walls, its your choice, chains and straps and slabs of steel, a tricycle wheel, spokes bent and broke, choke on what refuses to stay below the belt and never prosper, turn down, turn around, lost and found, misfits in an unwanted place, space, and time...
PID
apw:12346676
Date Uploaded
2017-08-16T00:44:42.976Z
Title
Inspiration
Author
W., Diana
Date
2010-02-24
Date
2010-02-24, 2010-02-24
Pages
7 pages
State
Alaska
Text (TR)
1 Word Count: 2,079 Diana Waggy, Alaska INSPIRATION Everyone talked quietly among themselves as we waited for her to arrive. Two hundred women were seated in the gym, with a dozen guards stationed around the perimeter of the room. Long gray curtains partitioned off part of the room, and behind them the old creaky bleachers and various cabinets, athletic gear, and other detritus usually found in the prison’s gymnasium. I knew this because I was in charge of getting everything moved and cleaned...
PID
apw:211
Date Uploaded
2015-09-16T18:14:07.028Z
Title
It wasn't long ago that I found myself
Author
Rosado, Enysia
Pages
3 pages
Text (TR_WF)
It wasn't long ago that I found myself in a compromising situation as a "inmate" at York Correctional Institution, in Niantic, Connecticut. I put great emphasis on "inmate", because it seems that is all we are to those employed through out the facility. Although we are distinguished by numbers while incarcerated, we must remember we are so much more! Daily, many of us become victims of psychological abuse by staff. "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words...
PID
apw:12359787
Date Uploaded
2020-06-18T19:33:25.705Z
Title
Left behind
Author
West, Chastity
Date
2009-12-16
Date
2009-12-16, 2009-12-16
Pages
16 pages
State
Connecticut
Topics
Memoir
Text (FT)
- Chasity C. West Left Behind "Everybody lock up!" The guard barked over the intercom. "Get in your cells, now! " " Oh God, what now?" One of the girls asked, picking up her plastic bowl and gathering her belongings beneath her arm. "There's a code purple," someone announced as she stepped through the door that had been electronically unlocked by the fumbling guard at the control panel, "Somebody hung up in building two." Building two hos...
PID
apw:289
Date Uploaded
2015-09-16T18:25:37.994Z
Title
Life without children
Author
Field, Linda
Pages
1 page
Text (O)
Life without Children by Linda Field, CCWF I came to prison when Sara was seven. She was too young to understand 25 to life meant she’d grow up without her mother. Her brother and sister, who were 15 and 12, didn’t truly understand. Sara’s first visit was traumatic. She spent the day begging me to allow her to stay with me. She promised to be good, never leave my room, and never bother the guards. She couldn’t understand why I didn’t want her. She sobbed, clinging to me when it was time to le...
PID
apw:12349132
Date Uploaded
2017-11-03T14:15:34.63Z
Title
More than my share
Author
Vanderford, Anna
Pages
1 page
Topics
Prisoners' writings, American -- Unknown, Unknown. Department of Correction
Text (O)
Anna M. Vanderford NEW ADDRESS 537261 MBCC C1-A-215 145673 1010 W. 6*“ Ave. 29501 Kickapoo Rd. Shakopee, MN 55379 Mc Loud, OK 74851 More Than My Share A Every night, I would awaken to an orgasm, as he gave me oral sex. Eventually he penetrated me with his tongue, then replaced it with a cold beer bottle then himself. When he grew bored of my being Daddy’s girl, I was shared with a private club of Uncles, which were his friends. It all came to an abrupt halt when he committed suicide. But the ...
PID
apw:12352968
Date Uploaded
2018-09-25T19:49:27.409Z

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